Hello poor neglected blog, I feel like one of those people who blogs until they get upduffed and then jump ship. I can assure you I haven’t I have just been burying my head deep deep deep somewhere and getting through the days by managing to wake up pregnant and go to bed pregnant. I have also been a Games Maker at the Olympics which was a very good distraction technique and made me admit to people every day that I was actually pregnant, something I am finding hard to do.
So we have now had our 20 week scan and so far still so good, friends have given us a cot and at some point I will have to admit that we are maybe actually going to finally have a baby! I still can’t quite bring myself to believe that it won’t go wrong at some point. My anxiety is something that I am working on, and I think every medical person I have dealt with is also aware of exactly how worried I am. At first I was embarrassed by this, now I am embracing it, if it means people are gentler with us, humour my concerns or take longer over our scan showing us why there is nothing to worry about it is all good!
People have been lovely but you know those friends that never mentioned your fertility issues or disappeared as soon as you admitted you were having issues, well they are now appearing back in our lives. Villa Boy doesn’t do grudges so hasn’t really noticed, me I have to admit to feeling a slight resentment at their reappearance now everything in life is working as it should. It is probably this that has led me to tell almost anyone and everyone that I mention my pregnancy too that it is an IVF pregnancy. I am not sure why I feel the need to do this but it comes out very easily and the more I say it the more important I feel it is to mention it.
So life is obviously good, pregnancy is everything I thought it would be and a few things I never imagined!